This morning I decided to weigh myself I knew Id been slacking off and falling back to bad habits but I didnt think Id fallen so far

92.6kgs I wish I could say I was shocked but that wouldnt be the truth. I am the one who keeps putting off my exercise sessions, I am the one who sneaks in a slice or two of pizza the bro brings home AFTER Ive finished my own dinner. Im the one who picks McDonalds or KFC when I know I love Subway, Sushi Juicy or even the local Noodle Shop [all of which are healthier than the fat laden fast food joints].

The moment I saw 90 roll past I was disappointed. It means that over the past 10 months Ive gained 10kgs. I swore Id never weigh over 90kgs again now I need to lose 24kgs to reach the top end of my healthy weight range and I will probably not reach this goal for my birthday like I wanted to. It may be possible, but due to the fact I dont think I can safely lose over 20kgs in three months, I have decided to aim for a goal weight of 77kgs by my birthday. I think that this is a much more realistic goal for the time period. Perhaps Ill aim for under 68kgs by New Year well see when I get to that bridge.

I came so close to my goal and now its falling further and further away. Granted, to date, I have already lost about 20kgs and that in itself is amazing however, if Im not careful I am going to end up exactly where I started, or worse. Something desperately needs to change. Me.

I know that this isnt going to be easy; in fact after I made the decision to get back on track with my weight loss, I ended up eating half a packet of mini cherry ripe chocolates, lollies, chips and even at half a chicken for dinner. So much for will power.

Now that I have made this choice to change my life, I have a decision to make... last year I joined Weight Watchers to help push myself off the dreaded plateau, and it worked I lost about 13kgs with them. Due to unforeseen circumstances I had to leave few months after joining.

I find myself standing in the middle of a crossroad. I could join back up with Weight Watchers or I could go it alone. I know I have had success with both methods in the past. So either way, I think I will be successful. Ive been thinking about this decision over the past few weeks, and have decided to re-join Weight Watchers... at least for now. Ive based this decision on a number of factors:

1. Meetings offer support when you have problems or questions about your goals. Also, you can hear the success stories of other members which can inspire you to continue your efforts.

2. The Program offered by Weight Watchers is sensible, its not a fad diet and it is a lifestyle change. It is also easy to follow and doesnt require any special foods.

3. I have to report my weight each week, I found this helpful last time as it helped keep me focused on the task at hand you find yourself motivated to make the effort to lose weight because someone will know when youve slacked off and they can offer tips to help get you back on track.

4. They have helped me defeat a plateau before perhaps they can help me regain my focus and get back on track with my weight loss goals

In a way I would like to go it alone, for one it would save me money [as I already have all their program books] but at the moment I need to get my regain my focus and get back on track. The group setting can help with that. Its not just the internal war of willpower you have to battle. You need to have focus and discipline in what you are doing, without it you will fall. Until I am confident that I am focused on my goals and the discipline needed to lose the weight on my own, I dont think that I can do it on my own. Perhaps in a few months I will have the confidence to be able to lose weight myself without the support of Weight Watchers. But until that day comes I think I will stick to the group setting.

The most important thing to remember is that everyone is different. What works for one person may not for another. Some people, like myself, who need that little push before they can confidently move on. Whichever method you use, remember that there are options available if you discover it is not working for you.